Artist Journal #1

It's been increasingly obvious!

I can't deny it no longer

I WANT TO DO EVERYTHING!

Let's face it: How many of us want to try EVERYTHING?

Many.

I spent my entire life trying to find my one passion, my niche, the one thing that will call to me STRONGER than anything else. I reached adulthood and I finally have the answer: everything.

*record scratch*

Random person: But...that makes no sense.

Now, let me explain it in more details.

I like to do everything. I like to draw. I like to craft. I like to sew, to make miniatures, to collect Transformers figures, to make doll clothes, to try new art materials, to do stopmotion, to take figure photos, EVERYTHING. And that is fine. 

Random person: Oke, but, how are you ever going to make any money? Like, how can you monetize making and trying everything?

I don't know? I spent my entire life thinking I must make money to make my art, without realizing that I made some amazing projects that nobody ever saw because I was too afraid to share. Or worse, I deleted social media pages because they did not look professional enough or because I lost motivation. 

I regret it. You know why? Cause no one ever starts professional! No one is born and makes everything perfect from the start. And I wish I had those bad things to look back upon, but they are gone, forever lost in the void of the internet. 

Looking back at all my "unprofessional" attempts at making something that sells I took some time to meditate. No, I made no views or money. But those things brought me joy. Those things made my happy. Making stuff and collecting stuff makes me happy. And they made me meet people. And I made friends. As a no one in the void of the internet I made friends. That is enough. I feel victim to what I had been thought for years: that you need to make money out of something in order to be successful. Now, after I reached adulthood I realized how wrong I was. Of course I would love to make money out of my hobbies, but, first of all, I want to life and feel joy. I want the projects, I want the connections. I want to try trends even if they are old. 

Maybe I will never be able to monetize what I make and I will have a very normal and boring job. But I want to create because when I create I feel joy. I will create because it makes me happy first. If money will appear, I will gladly accept them. But if all I manage to do is have fun and make friends, I will already have become rich.

I don't know if this post will ever reach anyone in the great void of the internet. I mean, who even reads blogs anymore. I don't think I read any blogs. Maybe I write here thinking that I am safe from anyone reading, haha. But I wrote it. And I will continue to write. And I will write about all my projects. I won't try to niche down or limit myself anymore. And I won't delete anymore. If it's going to be ugly or pretty, if it's going to be a story about success or failure, I want to be able to look back. I wish I would have start it sooner, don't we all? But as they say, today is a great day to start too. 

Idk how often I will write. I will try to write at least once a week. But if anyone reads this, write down in a comment. It would be cool. 

Oke, see you next time!

Bye!